shifting

I've been in this really weird place in my head lately, and I'm starting to see myself in a different light. I don't really know how to explain it, other than the fact that I'm ready to move forward, yet I'm also willing to wait.

It's like I know what I want, but I'm not at the point where I'm ready for it, I guess. I've always been the type to rush in and follow my impulses, my heart before I think about it. Not that that is always a bad thing. Sometimes you can't let your head get in the way of your heart... But that only works when your heart is focused in the right direction. I'm finally starting to see my heart is looking in the right direction.

It's been a long time coming, and it's taken a lot of soul searching but I know... I know deep in my heart that my heart would not feel this way if not for a reason.


I can feel my heart shifting, but the more I feel it shift the more I know that it is true. I know that I feel the way I do for a reason. And whatever that reason may be, I am realizing that this is much more than a test. This is a reason to wait. This is a reason to take a deep breathe. This is my heart playing a melody that I have never felt before. And I like it, no, I love it.